Why didn’t I say something?

A couple of days ago, I saw the Great Scot had posted on Facebook, for the first time in over a year. He had shared a post about the lead singer of the band Frightened Rabbit, who was missing. Fuck. I thought. I googled Frightened Rabbit, a Scottish band I quite like, and the Great…

The legacy of exes

Have you ever had a boyfriend or girlfriend, and felt like their ex cast a shadow over your relationship? It can feel like you’re living with a ghost. Even if they don’t want to get back together, the ex can still feel like an unbeatable rival. I’ve got two stories about this. The first was…

Gross misconduct. The end.

OK. Forget what I said a few days ago. Everything’s changed. I am SO OVER Whippersnapper. I never want to see or hear from him ever again. This is the closest I’ve come to hating someone. I’m actually having fantasies about hurting him physically, which I’ve never had about anyone before. I’m not saying I…

The emotional portcullis

I’ve been terribly unhappy for a few days. I was fine one day, then the next I felt really bad. I’m OK when I’m with other people, but on my own, I can’t stop crying. It’s hard to get out of bed. I’ve had two epiphanies and one bit of bad news. Bad News On…

The worst day of my life

9th February 2012 was the worst day of my life. It was about 8:30 in the morning. I had just got out of the shower. I had a towel around me. It was a bit cold in my flat, so I had got into the habit of putting my dressing gown on over the towel,…

Modern Death is Rubbish

This week it would’ve been my ex-boyfriend’s birthday. As you can see by my use of ‘would’ve’, he’s no longer with us – he died in a fire in 2012. I thought I would write a post about the challenges and dilemmas of having a late ex-partner in the 2010s – what it’s like to be…