Last weekend was a very emotional one. It was the anniversary of the fire that killed my ex-boyfriend. I went back to our house for the first time since 2012. The first anniversary after the fire, in 2013, I went and stayed with my parents and felt miserable. After that, I was with Matthew for…
Yesterday I had a very stressful day! Most days, Andrew phones me when he’s on his way home from work. It’s often around 11pm, and we chat about our days while he’s on the bus, and I’m usually getting ready for bed. Then, when he reaches his flat, he has to end the call, because…
The last week or so, I’ve been a bit of a shambles. I had annual leave last week, which was supposed to stop me feeling so burnt out at work. I love my job, but lots of my colleagues and I are feeling like we’re cracking under the pressure in the NHS. We spend all…
A couple of days ago, I saw the Great Scot had posted on Facebook, for the first time in over a year. He had shared a post about the lead singer of the band Frightened Rabbit, who was missing. Fuck. I thought. I googled Frightened Rabbit, a Scottish band I quite like, and the Great…
Have you ever had a boyfriend or girlfriend, and felt like their ex cast a shadow over your relationship? It can feel like you’re living with a ghost. Even if they don’t want to get back together, the ex can still feel like an unbeatable rival. I’ve got two stories about this. The first was…
A few weeks ago, it was my ex-boyfriend’s birthday – the one who died. I went back to his city, where I used to live with him. I went to see his Mum in the morning. She had suggested we feed the squirrels in the park. I thought this was a good suggestion, as he…
On Saturday night I went clubbing, with a group of girls. Unfortunately, the club was not busy. The dance floor was pretty empty. The music was great, but it was pretty niche. After saying goodbye to my friends, I was faffing about with the Uber app outside the club, when I thought I want to…
I find this blog https://sexlinestories.com/ absolutely fascinating! It’s an anonymous blog of a lady who works at a sex phoneline. She wrote a recent post about a caller who kept asking her to say “I love you” while he was getting himself off. I thought it was really sad. It got me thinking about the whole…
OK. Forget what I said a few days ago. Everything’s changed. I am SO OVER Whippersnapper. I never want to see or hear from him ever again. This is the closest I’ve come to hating someone. I’m actually having fantasies about hurting him physically, which I’ve never had about anyone before. I’m not saying I…
This week in London, there was a devastating fire in a block of flats, killing many people. It has caused some political unrest in the city, so it’s all over the news and social media. A few friends texted to check I’m OK, because they knew it would make me think of the house fire…
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